Grrrr >:[

Yesterday was perfect... i fell asleep around 10:30 the night before, woke up without problem, went to all my classes, then came home. i admit i was upset when report cards came. but i changed my grades so i wouldn tget screamed at by my dad. i thought he checked them. i hung out with Joe Sanborn, Aleana Hasleton, Alan Cote, and of course, Alec<3. i finally learned how ta skateboard =). but when i woke up this morning it kinda drifted away. my dad didnt check my report card yet. (hopefully he buys the changed grades). and we had a lockdown because some kid was seen walking to school with a gun. omg i was in the library having a panic attack!! especially since yesterday was the 11th anniversary of columbine... i was like "im screwed, they always go ta the library first".

just bitching lol

ok so let me get this straight...
you supposedly love me?...
and would do anything for me?..
well then let me ask you this....

why the fuck would you let them do that too me?!?!?
why would you let them tare me apart like that?!
i love you too death...
but i absolutely fucking hate you for this..
i make one mistake.. and all hell brakes loose
Megan was right "if Alec really loved you as much as
he says he does, he wouldnt let his friends hurt you"
finally you help me...
after days of me begging for your help.
you decided,
"im gonna let her suffer"
why???
to teach me a lesson???
what fucking lesson was that suppose to be Alec?
"i want you to pay for breaking my heart"
im fucking sorry i did.
i begged for you back that night
but no, you sicked the dogs on me,
all fucking 3 of them.....
after you did that..
i often question how much you love me....

if you even do at all