The lovely bones

greatest movie of my life! i recommend it to everybody

Get out of my head

just woke up about 20 minutes ago from another dream...

this one was... well.. alot of things...

weird
scary (in a sense)
better

it made me kinda scared in the beginning. but, as it went on, it made me feel soooo happy. that must be why i remembered it so easily...

it was weird because it was a little dance type thing in which people assigned you a person to dance with. the girls had to wear dresses and heels. the guys, tuxedo's. as i looked in a mirror at myself, i was wearing this beauiful long, white, flowing gown and pretty white heels. my hair was curled in a very pretty way, and i had these gorgeous diamond earrings in. then they gave us these cards that had the person we were suppose to dance with. my eyes nearly jumped out of their sockets when i saw the name on my card. all his friends were there (his girlfiends anyway), not to dance, but to watch all the people dance. i walked into the grand ballroom of wherever the hell i was, and i saw him standing there with the 3 of them. i kind of just stood in the doorway, i was afraid if i walked over acting all happy to see him and be in his arms, they'd just, tell me off, or something. the song "midnight the stars and you" started to play. he looked over at me, i just stood there in silence, then i half-smiled at him and half-waved. he waved me over to them. i calmly walked over. those three just looked at me. and again, i just stood there. he looked at me, and then at them and said, "now you can finally see us together" he took my hand and led me to the dance floor. we started slow dancing. i lokked back over at those 3 girls for a second, and to my surprise, they all smiled and waved at me. i looked at him, he was smiling and he was in tears, but smiling at the same time. still holding me in his arms he said "i love you, i want you back" i burst into tears.

then i just had to fucking wake up! >:'(

if we have the same dreams, we share the same nightmares

it's almost 4am in Laconia, NH. i woke up a little while ago from
a dream?
or maybe a nightmare?
I'm not sure what to call it. you be the judge...

i only remember bits and pieces of it. the 1st part i remember is this girl had a gun while we were sitting in class. she pulled it out and pointed it at me. my friends were telling me she was gonna perform a school shooting. i coward in fear as she kept pointing the gun at me. the next part i remember is my ex-best friend Tatiana and i were talking, and then me and her were on the floor and i was hugging her, then my ex-wife tasha came over, put her hand on my shoulder and then said "Audi, thank you" i knew what she was trying to do. then her and tatsi walked up one of the hallways at Laconia high school hoding hands, not sure why i did but i ran after them and tore there hands apart. i had tatianas hand in one, and tashas hand in the other. then me, tatsi, and her boyfriend Travis were walking up the stairwells, and i found a $50. so i grabbed it. and then travis was like "I think thats ulyssys, you should probably give it to me and i'll give it to him" for some reason i kinda believed him...

then i woke up and looked at the clock

Halloween

how i love you...


you make me come to life. its not just nighttime. the day is amazing as well. every year, i put on the costume i picked out. and just walk around downtown. if it's a school day i just put it on when i get home. i especially love the season in which you fall in. fall... when Halloween night finally hits when the sun comes down. i always trick-or-treat. last year it was raining :/ but i still had fun. im hoping this year it will be an unusually warm Halloween, with a full moon, the sound of leaves scraping against the streets and sidewalks.

that would be perrfecct :)