Senior Year =)

Best year so far<3 i will be crying on my Graduation day :) No one in my family thought i would finish high school. which i can't blame them for because i was a little punk my freshman, sophmore and first half of my junior year. i am taking so many pictures that day. Ulyssys said he's gonna take some with his new $1,000 camera that he got for school =) Its literally.. a dream come true! :) Congratulations to the Graduating class of 2011<3

in my next life

In my next life:
• My eyes will be a piercing color of blue
• My hair a dirty blonde color
• My boobs will be bigger
• I wont have celulite
• I’ll have both mommy and daddy
• I’ll be 5’9”
• My skin a perfect tan glow year round
• My life won’t be so fucking complicated…


But then I snap back to reality:
• My eyes are brown
• My hair is fucked
• My boobs are small for my size
• Im a little chubby
• I only have my dad
• Im 5’3”
• Im white as ghost all fucking year
• And my life will always have tremendous complications…

Im fucked… 8[

it's offfical

Wtf just happened? i thought you were over all that. i really did. i thought you were finally gonna treat me like a human being && your daughter, instead of yell at me like a fucking dog. but as usual, i was wrong.. DEAD wrong. Yes, i will admit when i was younger, i was very stupid when it came to boys. i will admit i couldn't be trusted when i was younger, because i was always up to something. But, i am 17 now, i have the best grades i've had in years, im graduating high school in June, i'm always home on time, and i do everything under the sun to make up for the mistakes i've made in the past. Did you really just have to give me a speech telling me how stupid i am && how i cant be trusted? Well dad, i guess im not good enough for you. i just want to know what makes Ulyssys so much better than me. is it because your not my real dad? is it because he's a boy? is it because you love him more than me? the thought of all this just shatters my heart. i love you so much, i respect everything about you. but apparently you don't love me back. that really hurts me. you always told me "don't trust what men say" i guess that counts for you too. It's offoicial, i've made up my mind. I am working from March 2011, until November 2011, and saving every penny i earn. just to get away from you, i dont care if i have to live Grampa. At least he loves me. he always trusted me, and when i made a mistake he would TALK to me about it, and let me know that what i did was wrong. not SCREAM at me, like i was a fucking dog. i can't live with you and Ulyssys anymore, simply because i can't live with people that hate me.