i hate christmas...
on 12/23/09 (the day before we got out of school) my advisory tried to get me to play christmas charades... i politely declined.. i was labled the scrooge of the junior class. later that day in forth block.. i was voted most likely to be visited by three ghosts.
its really not my fault why i hate christmas... my mother passed away when i was 11 years old on June 11th,2005. and her 49th birthday wouldve been December 27th,2009. i think its safe to say thats why i hate it.
i explained to my new boyfriend Brian Bozek (yes, the 18 year old line backer, the jock and the punk, ya i get it.) that i have alot of problems trusting other people because of the stupid heorine addict that i used ta call "mommy", couldnt tell the truth even f her life depended on it. always when i was younger it was one lie after the other. she swore to my brother, my father, and i, that she would try ta get help and get clean... needless to say it never happened.
to this day i cant figure out why im here...
christmas cookie anyone?
It's one thing to have terrible memories and a justified hatred for something. But if other people's reactions bother you then no one else has to know how you feel.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Christmas sucks for you. Maybe one day something amazing will make up for it. If not you just might have to make up for it yourself. Enough will power and work can change almost anything.