miss you:'(

i wrote this for him after he died... was gonna leave it on his hollywood star, when i went to his wake, but id rather do this.

Dear Michael,
goodness what i would say to you if you were alive. first of all i love you, have since i was around 3 or 4. i remember trying to dance like you when i first saw thriller with my mommy. you've probably met her by now. shes up there in heaven as well. i feel so bad for your babies. prince, paris, and blanket. my brother and i were the same age as paris and prince when our mom died. i know everything they're feeling. i remember when i met you in florida when i was 8. when i saw you coming out of that hotel i couldn't believe my eyes. thank god i was right up the street from my house or my momma woulda got worried. i walked up behind you and said (well just about screamed) "hey MJ!" you turned around, bent down to my height and looked at me through those infamous aviators and said "hey cutie" :'). the day i found out you died i was taking a nap at my ex boyfriend joeys house. i slept from 2 until about 9pm. when i got home mybrother told me you died. i said no farah fawcett died. he changed the channel to the news and i saw it was true. i cried that whole night and for the entire week after. i couldn't believe you went so fast. well idk what else to write except i love&&miss you so f***ing much!
R.I.P MJ :'(