Fool me once

I hate this so much. We dated once when i was 13, he dumped me after 2 weeks then i tried to commit suicide over him. As you can see, it didnt work. I drank bleach while sitting fully clothed in a tub of warm water. i woke up in the hospital 2 days later. They had to perform emergency surgery on my vocal cords because they bleach melted them. i had to wear a neck brace for a little while before i could talk again. And after that i never really wanted to talk to him.
That happened at the beginning of my freshman year. 3 years later towards the end of my senior year. He texted me. Too make a long story short. I was so scared to even be around him again. But we hung out alot at his place and i could still feel that stupid feeling creeping its way back up to the surface, after i had buried it years ago. Finally, we slept together. I was just gonna "hit it and quit it" but i came to my senses and realized i couldnt do that. After more hanging out. He finally told me that he wanted to be with me. Like a fool, i took him back. The last 10 months of my life were amazing. But sadly he left me again.

I'm sensing a pattern here. He only texts me every couple of years. Well you know the old saying, "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me." I'm not about to go for a third time so If he does text me a few years down the line and says "Oh i made a terrible mistake, i want you back" Im gonna tell him to kiss my ass. He lied to me. He bought me an engagement ring. Introduced me to his family, Pretty much sewed me into it. Then he just dumps me and doesnt even give me a straight answer when i ask why. I was gonna have a family, a mother, everything... Now its all been viciously snatched away.