Good god :(
I think he changed his number. i tried to call him earlier and i got a message telling me the number is no longer available. I walked all the way to his house, his car wasn't there. I walked to his brother Michael's house, wasn't there either.
I decided to walk back over there at 4am today. If it still isn't there. Then i'm going to walk all the way to the Tanger outlets, to the Gap where he works, and hopefully he is working a morning shift and will be there. If not, well then i walked almost 8 miles, for nothing. Its a 16 minute drive. Who knows how long its gonna take me on foot.
If my father calls me asking where i am, i'm just going to tell him i didn't want to sleep all day and miss my 3 o'clock interveiw with Walgreens, so i went to the beach. Let's say JJ does have to work a morning shift, and i get there before he does. When i see his car pull in, i'm going to hide and surprise him. I will tell him "if you really want this to be over, then i will leave you alone." i'm hoping that he will realize that i walked all over the place looking for him last night, and i walked on the fucking highway at 4 in the morning. Just to see him.
I must've lost my mind to do this... or maybe... its love :(
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