Hell hounds are after me.

I trusted him once when i was 13... Got my heart broken to the point of suicide. But not enough that i wouldn't forgive him. Not to the point past forgiveness.

Stupidly, I give him a second chance at 17/18. Hahaha you idiot, Again got my heartbroken. Not to the point of suicide... But something much worse... To the point where my heart has grown cold.

I told my grandfather the day he broke up with me, January 6th, 2012. (Could it be? Really? just over a month ago?) That i am NOT interested in dating anymore! I DO NOT want a husband or anything of that matter, Because the ONLY one that i did want... For almost 6 years, longer than i have had feelings for anyone... Just woke up one day and decided.. "I'm never going to talk to her again, Just kick her to the curb." && what hurts the most is, He... Made it look... So... Easy.

Now, i have become what i have despised about him for years on end, Heartless. For 6 years i called him "The Heartbreaker." What has he done to me? Yes, this is partially my fault for trusting him. But the majority of it lies with him. For lieing to me. For buying me an engagment ring, proposing to me, pretty much super glueing me to his family, telling me he loved me, and then NEVER MEANING ANY OF IT! NOT A FUCKING WORD OF IT!

I just wanna ask him... Was this funny to you? Building up my hope, trust and then smashing them to pieces? TWICE?!? I hope you are very proud of what you have done to me. Twice you break my heart. I was once sweet, loving, trusting. But now, You have turned me into the girl version of yourself. Heartless, Bitter, && worst of all.. Cold. Thank you for everything you selfish cold-hearted unimaginable bastard!

"Listen to the rythym of the falling rain, Telling me just what a fool i've been, I wish that it would go and let me cry in vein, and let me be alone again. The only boy i care about has gone away, looking for a brand new start, but little does he know that when he left that day, along with him he took my heart. Rain, please tell me now does that seem fair? for him to steal my heart away when he don't care, I can't love another when my hearts somewhere far away"